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10:38am 15/06/2005
  Hello!

I just got back from a week in Massachusetts. It was pretty fun. I stayed in Andover, but we visited everywhere! We went up to New Hampshire, and we went to Boston, and also to Salem. I had layovers in North Carolina and in Pittsburg. I've been quite a few places. I ended up growling and snarling at a few people... I guess, it's because, I'm used to being able to, when I'm feeling overstimulated or anxious, go to my room, or get away from people. When I was in Andover, I had no alone time... people were constantly around me. I scared my younger cousin, and my aunt thinks I'm insane... so, other than that, it was good. I also had some random kid want to pet me... o.0??? That was kind of weird... she kept telling her mom she wanted to pet the kitty... That's only ever happened once before, and it wasn't that strong... my brother just used to enjoy petting me on the head, and playing 'kitty'... I never thought of it as weird. The girl's mother looked thoroughly horrified and hurried her child away..

I have to go, but I'll post more later.

Raleigha		  
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Sorry about that!   
03:34pm 05/06/2005
 
mood: silly
music: System of a Down
Hi there everyone! Sorry about the lapse in entries, it has been really busy around here lately. I had finals(yeah, who'dve thought they called end of year eighth grade tests finals!) the last two weeks in May, and before that it was just super hectic. I'm not one to make excuses though, so, I apologize, I haven't been keeping up with my duties as the WereList guinea pig lately (just joking Savage!).

Well anywho... since school's been out my control has regained. I think it had something to do with, I was really stressed the last month or two of school. I mean, I had been taking what people dished out at me (insults, punches, paper balls, etc.) all year, and I couldn't do anything back, so I think everything was just so pent up inside me that I was releasing it that way. I've been able to spend alot more time outside, with my animals, and a whole lot more time at the big cat sanctuary I volunteer at (SOOO fun by the way!), so I have been alot happier lately. Wow! I sound like a spaztic kid in this post... oh well. Anyone who has the opportunity, I would suggest volunteering at an animal shelter, reserve, or sanctuary, particularly if they have the type of animal you are, or are interested in. Being with the tigers is extremely calming and fun. Vicky (the lady who runs the place) was so surprised how well they took to me (even though I am not allowed to come in contact with them yet). There is one male tiger, her golden tabby (hehe who would have thought!) that seems to have taken a liking to me, according to her he usually lunges at people who pass by his enclosure, but when I pass by he comes up and rubs the fence and chuffs at me... it's so amazing just to watch the animals! Eventually, I hope to be able to actually come in contact with the animals, but for now, I am just fine spending time around them, cleaning cages and doing whatever else needs to be done.

Well, that wasn't a very insightful entry, but, it's what I'm feeling at the present moment, so... there ya go!

Merry We Meet, Merry We Part, and Merry Meet Again,
Raleigha		  
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Continued   
05:49pm 19/05/2005
 
mood: tired
music: Tiny Dancer, Elton John
I got a comment on my most recent entry from someone from the list named Laurie. She gave me her view on my not being able to control my feline-like tendencies as well as I usually do. She thought it might have to do with hormones... I would have to agree. Not that I didn't hit puberty at 11, but lately there have been many things going on and my hormones have been going a little haywire. It's not necessarily that my other 'side' is coming out, because I see myself as one whole person... rather... it's as if the true me is showing... the animal me. It's kind of strange to think about, being my actual self, since I have kept it 'under wraps' so to speak, for a long time. It's not that I feel bad about my actions, it's that other people find it odd for a 14 year old to snarl, and yelp, and mewl... or even be enthralled by shiny things... (don't know why that one is but, hey, shiny things are cool!). Lately, I guess, I have been letting a certain person deeper into my life than anyone else has ever been. Though, in my naivety, I haven't realized that there is no point to loving this person, even if I have known him 2 years... we haven't dated, but we have... been slightly intimate. I felt as if I loved him before that, but after it grew stronger. The hormones might be a result of that. Yet, I wonder, could my actions be coming more out of hurt? I never let people into my life, because in the past it has gotten me brutally hurt... but I let him in. Alas, I have been hurt again, but this time, I don't want to freeze him out, I want to keep him here with me, because he is really, one of the only people who I care for deeply.
This entry has begun to get slightly off the task at hand though, so I think, that I will end it.

Merry we meet,
Merry we part,
And merry we meet again.

P.S. Could everyone... I don't know if pray is the right word... but.. that's the word I'm going to use. Pray for a friend of mine. He is a were and he has been there for me from the beginning. His name is FoxZeta and he has been going through alot lately... his lung has collapsed for the third time... so... please, he needs all the good energy he can get.		  
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Self Control   
05:48pm 19/05/2005
 
mood: tired
music: Tiny Dancer, Elton John
I have been working on controlling my 'animal instincts', if you will, since I was 10 (when they became abnormal). Lately, the past week or two, I have been having trouble controlling myself. I have been snarling when I'm mad, rather than calmly walking away. When hurt, I have been growling or yelping. It's been hard for me to reign it in and I have worked so hard to keep it that way, but lately I'm just loosing my grip.

I will continue this later, class just ended.

Raleigha		  
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Well... ebloggy...   
05:46pm 19/05/2005
 
mood: sleepy
music: Tiny Dancer, Elton John
I have been posting on Ebloggy.com, and I am going to transfer some the posts from ebloggy to here when I am able to. My 'blog' one ebloggy is raleighawere.ebloggy.com.		  
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Well.... First Post   
04:32pm 08/05/2005
 
mood: ecstatic
music: Breaking Benjamin, So Cold
I've never been on Livejournal before. I was told by Savage that it might be a good place to go to write about my personal therianthropy. Thanks! It's taken me thirty minutes to figure out how to post an entry, but I think I've got it! I don't know exactly how this works, I'm not used to writing down my thoughts, ideas, and feelings.... maybe I'll get the hang of it.		  
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